Not long after that I got into a two-year relationship with a man who loved, yet cheated on me. It was a messy breakup. Recently some questions have bounced around in mind: What happened to me during those years? What did I get, gain, achieve in these two relationships? Why am I now alone? What will I do? How do I do things by myself? It is a word that describes a person who is strong enough to live and enjoy life without depending on others. So I started reading about being single, and interviewing other happy single people.
I needed to find proven ways to be happy as a single adult woman. Finally, some me time. This is the time to reconnect with myself, a time where I can talk to myself, debating all the questions and answers that are bouncing in my head.
This is the time of reflection. This is the time of acceptance and letting go , which brings me to the second pointโฆ. Yes, I have fond memories of my exes, but that was in the past. I know I will always cherish those memories, but I need to stop clinging to them to live for today and plan for tomorrow.
During those ten years, I lost love, a pregnancy, and my health. I truly believed I had lost everything. Part of me feels afraid of this quick change. My heart has been bashed, bruised, and broken. Hopefully the next someone will treasure and treat my heart with love and respect. This felt like a slap in the face to wake me up. It reminded me that even with a broken heart, I am still standing.
There are still so many possibilities for me. I am lucky to have a supportive mother and sister. They are my sanityโmy light. Spending time with them relaxes me in a way. I know for sure I can always share my happiness and sorrow with them. I can always depend on them without feeling the slightest bit of guilt. Sometimes being in a relationship can make you lazy about developing yourself.
